As a pastor, I learned the hard way that my ministry was either
propelled by hope-motivating rest in God’s sovereignty or fear-inducing
belief that success would be the result of me controlling everything. In
my early morning waking moments, in those quiet moments in the car or
as my body gave way to sleep, I would pepper myself with a long list of
“what ifs” and “if onlys.” This habit never produced greater courage or
rest. It only tempted me to wonder if I had what it takes and pushed me
to try to control things that I could not control. But over and over
again in grace my heavenly Father came to me through his Word and the
ministry of others and remind me of the only place rest could be found.
I did the same thing again and again when our children resisted our
instruction and correction. I did it again and again when they debated a
command or questioned our plans. I did it again and again when they
opposed our authority and quested for self-rule. I did it again and
again for two good reasons.
To begin with, my wife and I brought children into this world who
thought they didn’t need us! Each of them at some point fell into
believing they were far more knowledgeable and capable than they really
were. They all assumed that their intentions were noble and their plans
sound. They all thought they were capable of determining what was best,
even when they lacked important information and experience. They simply
felt they were in possession of a better way. Keep Reading...
